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I think I'm going into a miniature Depression again because of a jack-*** I call my "Friend".
He bluntly told me, in a serious manor, that my art is bad, my comics are boring, and that listening to me on youtube feels like hours even though it is only 10 minutes.
We have been having problems like this all ready, but this really tipped it.
I stopped talking to him for the most part.
I don't want to stop being his friend, but at the moment I don't ever want to see his face again.
He told me this when I was stuck because he got me to the fricken location.
I was on the brink of punching him in the face, calling him a few words, and getting my friend to drive me home.
I want to draw and get even better to show him, as they would say, but every time I try I see all I do wrong and get so depressed, I actually get worse.
I know it's a learning process, and I know I shouldn't let people get to me.
But theirs a difference between just some faceless person online who doesn't know me, and some one I call a "Friend".
I can deal with the faceless people because they don't know me, and don't want to, so why should I care.
But then when a friend does something that a troller on youtube stoops down to, it just really gets to me.
What makes all this worse is the fact that he KNOWS I am wanting to be a Graphic Designer.
So when he says it, it hurts 10X harder.
Oh, and I have tried telling him it hurt me, but he turns it around and blames it on me.
He NEVER apologies, ever!
So anyways, I really need to say that, and I really don't care if he sees this.
He bluntly told me, in a serious manor, that my art is bad, my comics are boring, and that listening to me on youtube feels like hours even though it is only 10 minutes.
We have been having problems like this all ready, but this really tipped it.
I stopped talking to him for the most part.
I don't want to stop being his friend, but at the moment I don't ever want to see his face again.
He told me this when I was stuck because he got me to the fricken location.
I was on the brink of punching him in the face, calling him a few words, and getting my friend to drive me home.
I want to draw and get even better to show him, as they would say, but every time I try I see all I do wrong and get so depressed, I actually get worse.
I know it's a learning process, and I know I shouldn't let people get to me.
But theirs a difference between just some faceless person online who doesn't know me, and some one I call a "Friend".
I can deal with the faceless people because they don't know me, and don't want to, so why should I care.
But then when a friend does something that a troller on youtube stoops down to, it just really gets to me.
What makes all this worse is the fact that he KNOWS I am wanting to be a Graphic Designer.
So when he says it, it hurts 10X harder.
Oh, and I have tried telling him it hurt me, but he turns it around and blames it on me.
He NEVER apologies, ever!
So anyways, I really need to say that, and I really don't care if he sees this.
Feeling of failure....
I feel like I keep failing.
Over and over, in the past, I have said I would do projects, and they never got done.
I would start working and for some reason or another they just wouldn't work out.
It feels crappy, but I just don't know what to do about it.
I want to move on from my failures, but every time I do it feels like I fail again.
The same has happened today...
I realized I don't have a partner, or at least, not as much of one as I need for my latest project and that has just left me feeling crappy.
I don't want to stop the project, I really like them, but I feel... I guess I feel now I just don't want to do them because I feel
Drawing Up My Characters
So I am working all of my characters in my Modern style.
Starting with my Human Persona, all the way down to random ones through out the ages.
And yes, now I have a human Persona.
His name is Tsuyoshi Christer and is a summoner.
And I am doing Denki of course.
Actually doing the premiere of the negative Denki Narikura.
Draw Exatin, Zazio, Chad, Prof. Bolt, Cat, Tien, and a few more.
These are just the main really.
Tsuyoshi is inked and to be colored and Denki/Narikura are still being drawn.
I've been meaning to convert a lot of these from Rp to picture, but just haven't.
Been a while...
Kekeke, it seems as though it's been a while since I've done a Journal.
That doesn't seem fair, especially with the topic of the last Journal.
So, I want to give an update on that.
He's a Douche.
Update done.
....Ok, sorry.
I "Forgave" him for maby 2 months then he acts like an A** at my b-day party which we do every year for me him and a friend of mine who all have the same b-day with in 2 days.
Biggest problem was after being a Jerk to me, later I do a friendly joke passing off the jerk moment and he decides to call me a jerk.
Really?
So We just kind of stayed away from each other all night, with a few more times of him calling me
Devious Journal Entry
Thank you all for the Favorites and the Llama's!
It was so many I got tragically overwhelmed.
Lol.
So I want to Thank all of you here, and be cool with it.
Hopefully I won't get overwhelmed next time.
Lol.
Oh, and anyone who gave me a Llama, do not worry I will give you guys your llamas as well.
Give Llama, get Llama.
© 2011 - 2024 DenkiWolf
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Don't let him stop you from doing what you want. You can become better if you just keep practicing, believe me I know it's sometimes frustratingly slow but you'll get to the goal eventually. I can understand it hurts to be called like that by a friend but if that's what he really has been thinking, I don't think he's a true friend to you. Don't let him bring you down and you can reach your dream some day