I feel like I keep failing.
Over and over, in the past, I have said I would do projects, and they never got done.
I would start working and for some reason or another they just wouldn't work out.
It feels crappy, but I just don't know what to do about it.
I want to move on from my failures, but every time I do it feels like I fail again.
The same has happened today...
I realized I don't have a partner, or at least, not as much of one as I need for my latest project and that has just left me feeling crappy.
I don't want to stop the project, I really like them, but I feel... I guess I feel now I just don't want to do them because I feel I will be ridiculed for them and even worse, have no one to talk to about it that will really get it.
It's been even worse because the person who was gonna help I really should have noticed earlier it wouldn't work out that way.
He's a really good friend of mine at school, but he is really bad when it comes to doing projects like this.
Especially since when I asked him to help he would constantly make harmful jokes and wouldn't provide anything.
I'm now left in a state of what can I do?
I just don't know and I'm, frankly, scared... I need someone here who can help me with the projects.
And I don't want to give up fighting for this, because it is something I feel very passionate about, but I just can't seem to get it to work out.
It really hurt today when I was so psyched to work on it (Which I can't till the end of the week because of mid terms) But after what has happened... It's so hard now.
I get the feeling I don't want to do it but then I have another saying I do, and I'm just confused and tired of failing with what I pursue.
I want this to work!
I love what it is and I want this to work!
I have a lot of fun doing it.
And that was another thing. He was saying today that the reason there aren't many animators around here is because it's too hard and no one wants to do it, hurt me a lot, especially when he continued to say that it isn't fun to do.
Well I enjoy the crap out of it, the little I've done.
I've had a lot of fun sequencing and have caught on to the fundamentals extremely quick.
Anyways... I know not many people read this, but it's just something I wanted to get off my back and put up somewhere.
I won't say who it is, of course, and he is still my buddy, I just realized I need someone else to help me.
Huh, this has already calmed me down a lot.
No wonder people blog a lot.
Anyways, again, I guess I will end it with this... Thanks to anyone for continuing to read to this point.
I know I don't have many people advidly looking at my DA, but still... typing this all out has been really nice.
Oh and if you want to see a test of what I am talking about here is the link : denkiwolf.deviantart.com/art/W…
It's pretty aweful, but the test has really helped me learn a lot about what I need to do next.
Anyways, thanks again.